emotions have been running high on me these few days. if im a female, im sure people wld tink im having periods. seriously. i duno y.
im shagged. im tired. im messed up. im an asshole. im an idiot. im a joke. seriously i duno wat the shit is wrong with me. my mind has been in a big, crazy, nauseous rollercoaster ride that i don't know where i am or where i am heading. it seems tat all i do is just bitch and hurt people around me.
sometimes i wish i was a total stuckup. a bastard with no frens. an antisocial. at least i noe i only have myself to worry about. i duno y but i was brought up with having frens in my mind as a higher priority den myself. my frens say im crazy. n i dun doubt them. why isit tat i care so much for people tat in the end i jus hurt myself silly? y cant i jus let go of things, feelings, people, friendships or wateva? y do i even freaking bother wat others feel? is it wrong tat i jus wan people to b happy? is it wrong tat i do it in the expense of my own happiness? i fucking duno. if i could, i wld jus migrate somewhere. cut contacts with all the people i have ever known and start a fresh as a cold bastard. will it be nice to b alone?
